Medical Update

Apologies for the long gap between postings, but I've had rather too much Excitement over the last week to be able to publish anything.

 

It all started two Wednesdays ago when I went to get my hair cut.

The barber is only about 200 yards from our front door, but that's quite a long walk for an Old Crock. I counted my paces (350) and then had to negotiate 3 steep flights of stairs down to the basement. When I relaxed into the barber's chair, I was therefore exhausted and when I tried to say "I'll have a Mohican please" or "Give me a full Afro", pure gobbledegook came out! I simply couldn't form any words and sounded as if I had an extremely severe case of cerebral palsy. As you may imagine, this was a bit scary. It lasted for 3 or 4 minutes, during which time the poor barber, who didn't speak much English and probably thought the problem was his lack of sufficient vocab rather than a speech-impaired client, dashed upstairs to get his colleague to interpret. Eventually my powers of speech returned and I settled for a short back and sides.

 

However, when this loss of speech, preceded again by a dizzy spell, recurred that evening, Julia took me to A&E at St Thomas's hospital. Which was the start of a Nightmare night, involving umpteen tests, hours of waiting on extremely uncomfortable chairs in hospital waiting rooms and a transfer to King's Camberwell in the early hours before I was finally given a bed at about 6 am the following morning. More tests followed that day: multiple scans, X-rays and blood tests. The only thing confirmed by all these tests was that I had suffered a series of mini-strokes or TIAs (Transient Ischaemic Attacks) as revealed by the MRI scan, so I was kept in the Stroke Unit at King's for observation.

 

I was kept in over the weekend too because I had a few more dizzy spells followed by temporary loss of speech. However, once I recognised the advance symptoms, and sat down as soon as I felt dizzy, I always recovered quickly and avoided the speech problems which were the most worrying issue. But the Big Question remained unanswered, namely Why were these spells occurring?

 

And it remains unanswered yet, although the Major Suspect is Low Blood Pressure because the spells occur when I get up quickly. I suspect this has been exacerbated by a prolonged period on a cocktail of drugs, but there's no easy way to change this because other aspects of my condition necessitate their use, and the cocktail has now been increased by drugs for dealing with low blood pressure! To encourage the blood to keep flowing, I'm back in Surgical Stockings too - very fetching. But at least there is no evidence of anything more serious such as roving blood clots.

 

The only other abnormality revealed by the battery of tests was a high cholesterol level, which has been blamed on my ice-cream-rich diet, given that it's the only normal food I've been able to tolerate. So I've had to give that up for the time being as well. Disappointing, but perhaps not too fundamental a loss, at least temporarily.

 

And now I'm back at home again, which is always good for the spirits, having been released from King's on Tuesday evening after 48 hours without a dizzy spell. I am taking it easy and doing what I can to keep the blood going round, such as getting up (carefully!) and moving about every hour or so. Not too exacting a regime, I'm sure you'll agree.

 

Apart from that, I'm fine.

Oh, apart from my eyes as well of course, which are still very sore and don't work very well.  Otherwise, I'm fine.

Oh, apart from my mouth, which is still bone dry and means I have to eat via the NG tube up my nose overnight, instead of orally and by day like a normal Human Bean. Otherwise, I'm fine.

Oh, apart from the fact that the slightest exertion, such as turning over in bed, leaves me exhausted and breathless. Otherwise, I'm fine.
Oh, apart from the constant itchiness all over.  Otherwise, I'm fine.
Oh, apart from having to cut my nails down to the quick and file them smooth because they are so brittle that they split very easily, then catch and tear......ouch!  Otherwise, I'm fine.
Oh, apart from the frequent muscle spasms in my back, triggered by any sort of movement.  Otherwise, I'm fine.

Oh, apart from my general weakness and lack of energy......

Enough! I'm fine, ok?!

 

Tube Strike !

No, not this Tube...

Tube Trouble again....

No, not that Tube, nor the NG tube which carries my nocturnal grub this time, but the tube inserted in my jugular vein via my right shoulder which is used every fortnight for the ECP treatment, taking blood out for exposure to UV light and then pumping it back in again.

Somehow on Friday night (why do these things always happen on a Friday night? at least it wasn't a Bank Holiday weekend this time) the stitch attaching this tube to my shoulder broke, and when I awoke on Saturday morning it became apparent that the tube had slipped from its previous position and there was therefore less of it still inserted in the vein. No blood or pain thankfully, but it did require another visit to St Thomas's on Saturday morning to have it checked out.
The X-ray revealed that only the very tip of the tube was still in the vein, so they taped it securely to my chest to prevent it moving any more and I will get it sorted (either pushed back in or, more likely, replaced) at my ECP review appointment with the consultant at St Thomas's, which as luck would have it is on Tuesday.

No excitement otherwise since my last posting just over a week ago.
And not much change either.
I'm still weak and wobbly and can't eat solid food, I'm still on the same cocktail of drugs, my eyes are still very poor and I'm still very itchy all over, varying from Moderately, through Seriously, to Incredibly.
However, looking back over the previous weeks and months, I can see General Improvement overall because I do feel slightly better and am capable of slightly more activity, but it is still imperceptibly slow going.

Condition Stable...
sorry, couldn't resist it!

But hey, it's 4 months since I was last discharged from hospital and my condition at least continues to be stable.

Sloppy, Slushy and Mushy

All these terms can aptly be applied not only to my search for suitable foods (see previous posting of 3rd Sept), but also to the state of my brain and of my emotions at the moment.

Food first.
Nothing new to report, I'm afraid.
I still haven't mustered the courage or enthusiasm to try anything other than ice cream yet, although Julia has thoughtfully bought a few possibilities. I know I must start, if only to take the first steps towards getting rid of this horrible tube up my nose, so maybe I will manage something this weekend. Pathetic lack of willpower, I know.

As for my brain, the combined effect of drugs and encephalitis have brought about some interesting(?) changes. My intellectual faculties, such as they ever were, seem relatively unimpaired. I think reasonably logically most of the time and can still do the Times crossword, but my Memory is all over the place. My long-term memory appears fairly intact, but I struggle to remember what I did yesterday or even a few hours ago, although if I am given a prompt, the appropriate image will suddenly spring into my mind.

I know nothing about the workings of the human memory, but it seems to me from recent experience that we retain a vast quantity of mental images and that the trick is managing the recall process. It's as if I have in my head a huge library of memories, but have lost many of the pages of the catalogue! So I can't find them when I want them and indeed have no idea that they're there until someone or something else presses the right button. This doesn't however explain why my long-term memory is more reliable and more easily accessed than the short-term, which remains a mystery. I can only assume that l-t and s-t memories are on different shelves in the library and that my mental librarian takes a while to catalogue the s-t ones and move them to the l-t shelves. Or it may simply be in many cases that I struggle to recall anything that's happened since the Transplant in Feb 2011 because I haven't been with it for much of that time.

And so to my Emotions.
Presumably as a result of going through what I have over the last 18 months, they are pretty raw at the moment, meaning that I find I have much more empathy for my fellow Human Beans than I used to, especially if they are suffering, and that I blub at the slightest provocation! The empathy is a Good Thing, I think. The blubbing is just embarrassing....













One side-effect of this emotional development is that I find I have a strong taste for soppy music and have been downloading a collection of my favourite ballads and Luuuurve songs.
To date this comprises the following (in no particular order):
Memory - Elaine Page
Killing Me Softly - Roberta Flack
Sorrow -David Bowie
San Francisco - Scott McKenzie
I want to know what love is - Foreigner
Always on my mind - Elvis Presley
Can you feel the love tonight - Elton John
The first time ever I saw your face - Roberta Flack
I can't help falling in love with you - Elvis Presley
Goodbye Yellow Brick Road - Elton John
My Lady D'Arbanville - Cat Stevens
Unchained Melody - The Righteous Brothers
Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton
I don't wanna talk about it - Rod Stewart
Without You - Harry Nilsson
Yesterday - The Beatles
Sailing - Rod Stewart
Morning has broken - Cat Stevens
You don't bring me flowers - Neil Diamond & Barbra Streisand

Mostly 70s I know, but that is My Era for pop music after all.
If any of you can suggest any Glaring Omissions in this collection, please let me know.
Blog it to me, baby!

Sleeping Sickness and Soldiering On

Well, no, I haven't actually got Sleeping Sickness (one of the few afflictions to have passed me by so far, it seems), but I am doing an awful lot of sleeping.



If I don't have to get up for any reason (usually a hospital visit) I quite happily sleep for anything between 12 and 15 hours a night. That's a lot of sleep for a gwown-up. Hope it's doing some good. But if it is, the effects are not obvious yet, which also goes for the ECP. No appreciable change in eyesight, dry mouth or overall itchiness this week unfortunately.

So what to do?
Well, what can one do except Soldier On in good old British fashion?


Oh, and Rant and Rave a bit. And Swear and Throw things. Not so British, that.
But the Frustration has to come out sometimes.

Two hospital visits last week:

Tuesday, unscheduled visit to A&E at St Thomas's to replace NG tube which became blocked on Monday evening and refused to soldier on. Can't be British then. Tube replacement is not a very enjoyable procedure and was performed this time by a junior doctor who hadn't done more than one or two before. Having removed the old one without mishap, he pushed the new one up my nose. Unfortunately it went down my windpipe instead of my oesophagus; cue lots of gasping for air and urgent hand signals by Yours Truly. However, the second attempt was successful, happily, and the noo toob now works fine.

Thursday: appointment at Guy's oral medicine department, at which the consultant made it clear that my saliva glands have been permanently damaged by the radiotherapy and chemotherapy I've had and are very unlikely to produce more saliva than they do now. So at least the message was clear, though not very welcome of course.

The question now is how to deal with it?
Unless I want to continue being fed by NG tube for the rest of my life, which I most certainly do NOT, I have no option but to try and find sources of nutrition which my poor dry mouth can cope with. This means eating Sloppy Stuff like ice cream, rice pudding and baby foods,

and definitely not dry things like bread or crisps which soak up what little saliva I do produce and form themselves into an unswallowable ball of dry paste in my mouth. So this week I will start experimenting with various foods to see what my mouth can tolerate and to try and construct a menu of suitable things which are both edible and provide enough nutritional value to allow me to end my dependency on the tube.

Julia had the week off work and had hoped to manage a few Outings with me as welcome relief for both of us, but what with hospital visits and marathon sleeping sessions, we didn't get out for pleasure at all. Poor Julia did manage a couple of evenings out with friends  and some daytime activities for herself, but it hardly constituted a Holiday, which she is in sore need of to ease the burden of drudgery involved in looking after her Ailing Husband.

And so we carry on soldiering on....